An Idea

I've been so stressed lately, about my situations, my behavior, and my relationships. Some existential questions that comes and go to my mind. The problem is that I didn't choose to ask myself those question, it's really something out of my will. This brings into mind whether those existential questions causing me stress, or is it the other way around? If we suppose that existence is causing us such psychological problems, we must question ourselves have the illnesses been wi thin us since the moment we started to exist? Let's suppose now that routine, exhaustion, and the very big amount of responsibilities caused us stress in our life, which as we supposed earlier lead to put one self's existence in interrogation. In this case the philosophical questions that mind puts its self in is an escape from reality to a word of thoughts. Series of questions come to mind such as: is this escape common? Is it some kind of a justification to weakness of facing p...

I was thinking. I love women, but they are so complicated, and i hate complicated things, suddenly this lead me to discover that i don’t really love women i just love a woman’s body, and that is enough for me.

She told that I'm special, but later i discovered that she only said that because she thinks that she is special, and she only meets special people. By time she discovered that I’m no special I’m just different in way that she can’t understand. So she decided to control the relationship in a way that she comes to me when she needs to feel special and leaves me when she doesn’t, she did smart, but she ignored that i knew her well, i just didn’t want her to know because i wanted to know her more. So i decided to leave in silence, no trace left in my way. Sooner the way showed me that i am the one who gives a meaning to her existence in my life, she doesn’t really exist.